New Moon in Cancer ‘25
…aka living on the edge.
For some reason, this song feels like my anthem for 2025…
as absurd as that is.
but we live in an absurd world.
it may be a bit on the nose…but i feel like i live my life on the edge.
at the edge of dance. the edge of therapy. the edge of spirituality. the edge of the unknown. the edge of liminal space.
where is the point that spirit, movement, art, and the unknown meet? because that is the liminal space i have been hovering in for a long time.
beginning in my art practice, which became undistinguishable to my grief and spiritual practice, which transformed through therapy and psychology, and came back again through my art practice.
it is living in and through embodied knowing.
by living through embodied knowing, the distinction between art//spirituality//therapy/ blur. through the mind-body there is a consistency of spirituality that flows its way through every facet of my life.
if i’m making performance, i am engaging my spirituality.
if i’m meditating, i am engaging my art.
if i’m pulling tarot, i am engaging my therapy.
if i’m in authentic movement/contemplative dance practice, i am engaging my spirituality my art my therapy.
these boundaries between modalities disappear within the context of my mind-body.
i can’t differentiate between them and living.
…and the secret force underlying and intersecting through them all: the unknown. the liminal. the holy spirit.
whatever you want to call it. but when it’s touched. it’s not easily forgotten. whether we put a name to it or not.
The New Moon in Cancer is not my favorite time of year…
even during a good year, but there’s a sweetness in the air today that i cannot deny, that i can’t help but give a slurp (ew that sounds gross) just like the grapefruits i cannot get enough of.
((grandpa died during cancer season. the cycle of death begins again a year later.)
i was recently given permission by a peer in the therapy world to offer my services. between that permission and coming to the end of facilitating my dissertation research group and performing with joyce leeann again, i feel again on the edge of something powerful. something great.
my dreams come true.
i got advice from astrologer, Dossé-Via, through her app KTZ Universe to greet this new moon in cancer’s intentions in the form of a wish…
with the advent of my invisible disability, i’ve been physically forced to slow down. it’s made me begin to accept the limitations of my energy and my time. it’s a trial by fire.
dancing on a gay boat cruise through manhattan = apprx. a week (or longer) of a flare up…
“saturday night i have plans, which means that i should be able to get to work on tuesday, if i don’t have to walk up too many stairs, i may be able to work again on thursday, but i won’t be able to vacuum my apartment.”
i haven’t been to the grocery store since january.
i’m always living on the edge of a flare up.
(shout out to a partner that doesn’t blame me for health issues out of my control)
my wish for this new moon in cancer is for my dreams to come true.
to attract individual clients as a newly minted, somatic awareness specialist.
to attract groups and classes to teach contemplative dance practice.
to teach workshops and present at conferences across the world.
to teach contemplative dance practice at university levels for performance, therapy, and spirituality majors.
my tarot pull says this comes with joyful, fruitful, abundant collaboration with my peers and my community. that rest is essential. that the liminal is present. that the unknown is doing its magic behind the scenes. as long as i am trusting. as long as i am committed to healing. as long as i am remembering the calm nature of beauty.
tell me your wishes for the next 6 months for this cancer new moon.
what do you want speak into existence? where are you cautiously optimistic? what are you yearning for?
if we can elect, Zohran Mamdani, we can ask what we want from the world and put the work in to accomplish it as a community together!
this is the precious moment for cautious optimism.
